This is a real testimony, of a woman, constantly cheated. Unfortunately, many women experience the same situation.
My husband and I have been married for 9 years. Out of those 9 years he has cheated on me during 8 of them.
He has cheated while I was pregnant with both my children and even left me when I was pregnant with the first one and attempted to sleep with a prostitute when I was pregnant with the second one.
I have taken him back over and over, many times without any explanation or apology from him. A year ago I found out he had cheated with a lady he worked with. I forgot to mention he is a truck driver and is gone all the time. He met this lady at the driver school and they began to have an affair. When I found out about the affair it had been going on for 5 months.
I had some suspicious before I found out but he always denied it. He always says he doesn’t know why he did it when I confront him about it. After I ask him several more times he always find a way to blame me by sating he couldn’t talk to me, our sex life is not spontaneous or that he has lost the desire to be intimate. After this last affair I told him I wanted a divorced he broke down emotionally and begged me to give him another chance.
Since I had never seen that side of him and he started to open up more and apologized repeatedly I decided to give it a try. He promises me that he would stay away from the porn and that he would never cheat again. I accepted his promises but not without caution and suspicion, I mean I had heard that before. I thought we were working things out good. We were communicating better, we started praying together nightly, and we always told each other we love him/her before getting off the phone.
Well I went out of town this weekend for 3 days with the kids. He was not able to go due to work. When I got back I was checking the e-mail and saw where he had placed a personal profile and said that he was divorced. When I asked him about it he was shocked and tried to deny it until I told him I had read the profile. Then he decided to say that he was curious about how it all works. I let him know how I felt and reminded him of the promises he had made to me and then I told him that I was leaving at the end of May.
I told him that something was not right because recently we have only been having sex once a month. I am 34 and he is 31 and I have just reached my sexual peak. He began to tell be that he doesn’t have the desire and did I have any suggestions. I believe this is another lie or if he has no sexual desire it because he no longer desires me.
If that is true I can’t change anything if he doesn’t tell me what I need to change. It is also hard to make a marriage work that has so much distance and if he not willing to find something local (where he can be home every day) I am going to leave because I can’t continue to give without him giving also.
I just want to feel desired again, I want to be loved unconditionally, and I want to be in a happy fulfilling relationship. I need to know if I should just walk out and if not what should I do?
How many of you, felt the same way?
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